Balance

Something struck me this morning; a thought that I haven't been able to move from my mind since. It seems to me that somewhere in each person's existence there is a line drawn. An imaginary line of course, but nevertheless, there is a a discrepancy between one's humility and self worth. It seems we are closest to God when we are humbled, even broken, and yet God wants us to also know we are special individual creations crafted by His hand. This makes questions pop up uninvited and on their own will in my mind. I have questions like: is there actually a line between the two, or are they two completely different sectors of a person that are sufficient parts all by themselves? Also, if there is such a line, is it different for different people, or is there a specific dosage of humility and pride in a person required by our Creator?
I honestly don't have the answers to these questions, but I can't help but brood over them again and again in my mind. When I stand to sing in front of hundreds of people about my Savior, I want the worship to be entirely focused on Jesus, but can I honestly say I don't let applause boost my own esteem on occasion? No, I cannot. Part of the problem is we are all human. Well, in actuality, I guess that is more like most of the problem instead of part. Regardless, we all have something inside us that wants to be recognized for doing something right whether we admit it or not. We all might want to donate a hundred bucks to a local charity, but deep down inside we want someone to know we did it, too. However, the pendulum swings just as far the other way. We can't allow ourselves to become so caught up in our own depravity that we forget we are beloved children of God on high. Hence, we must find a balance. Where that balance is, perhaps none of us mere mortals truly know.
Take a look at 2 Samuel 9 sometime and read about a guy named Mephibosheth. I'm not 100% sure, but I think God can answer all those aforementioned questions with this story. Mephibosheth was the son of Jonahan, and was crippled. He felt unworthy, and even called himself a "dead dog." However, as a token of appreciation for Jonathon, David had Mephibosheth eat at his table like royalty. In a similar way we were (and still are) unworthy, but thankfully God sees us as friends of Christ. And as a token of His appreciation for Christ's sacrifice, we no longer must lay limp on the floor, yet get to rise to sit at the king's table, where our crippled legs are not even visible.