Many Thoughts

Today is one of those days that I think too much. I don't move throughout the day at all; no, I am just one point to another. I connect the dots of where I have to be in my schedule, I float through each terrorizing detail and I come to a point that I stop. I stop, just like I am now, and I think.
The case used to be with days like this one, that I would slip into depression. I would wonder why the world hated me in every aspect. I wondered why I felt I had not a true friend in the world, why I wasn't meeting the expectations of my family, and why I, myself, couldn't trust anyone. This afore-mentioned depressive state would be the same setting for my life right now in this very moment if I allowed it to be. I think I have to keep moving; keep going from task to task to keep my mind so boggled it's clear of dark thoughts. The fact is, I don't let my eyes get gloomy, therefore I stay out of my dysthymic element.
I know I am not the only person who connects thoughts, or looks entirely too far into situations. It is effortless for me to overthink a thought in my head until it turns into something far from the reality of the situation. I'm not saying I am crazy, of course crazy people wouldn't say they were either I don't suppose. However, I am saying that it would be easy for me to focus on another day slipping into oblivion forever to be erased from my memory and realizing I have still done nothing meaningful in my life. Time bothers me the most. We always say it flies, it goes by too fast, and "we remember when." But take a second and think. It is today, the ninth day of the third month of 2010. I don't know of anything importantant I have done with the almost three and a half months God has given me so far this year. It seems like just yesterday we were starting this year. The absolute truth is this: Christ is returning in the blink of an eye. No man knows the time of His return, and we have a commission to make disciples of all nations at our hands. What will we do with it? Will we allow ourselves to think too much and waste time? Or can we possibly actually do something we say we are going to for once, before this year is over?